It still hurts like you just left yesterday. Every day hurts. Every day we miss Tom. I am mad, I am sad, and sometimes I don't even know what I'm feeling because I am numb. Numb Numb Numb. I refuse to beleive what I know is the truth. I search for some solution but there really isn't any. Are we supposed to live the rest of our lives without Tom? HOW? HOW? HOW? This is a terrible dream I can't wake up from. Nobody should have a Christmas without The Big TK.